Lauren, dude ↵

is “fuck you”, the same thing as “you are a waste of time”?

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11.06.11.

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Pepper // Wanna Know You

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1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
8. How often do you listen to music?
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012?
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
13. What about ‘R’?
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
16. Are you going out of town soon?
17. When was the last time you cried?
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
24. What are you sitting on right now?
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
30. Does anyone hate you?
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
35. Did you have a dream last night?
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
44. What’s the best part about school?
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
48. Were you single over the last summer?
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
52. Are you nice to everyone?
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
56. Do you think you like someone?
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
60. Do you hate anyone?
61. How’s your heart?
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
65. Are your toenails painted pink?
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
70. How do you look right now?
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
72. Can you commit to one person?
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
74. Have you ever felt replaced?
75. Did you wake up cranky?
76. Are you a jealous person?
77. Are relationships ever worth it?
78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
81. Last person you cried in front of?
82. Is there someone you will never forget?
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
85. Are you over your past?
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
97. Who do you have texts from?
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

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MESSAGE ME, ASK ME..i’m single, dood!

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Miss you.

Tyler,

Here we are! Junior year at Twin Lakes, almost so cold I wouldn’t be surprised to see snow.

Haha, I know this life’s been moving so fast since you had to leave it, and that’s not fair to me. Maybe it’s kind of a consequence…I don’t know. You and I both know that the time I spend trying to keep you in the front of my mind is the time I spend knowing I shouldn’t have you up there right now. How selfish, how fucking selfish is that…..I get pissed at myself every damn time I’m all alone just doing nothing, and I know you’re forcing me to think about coming to visit, and taking the time to have that one on one talk I keep telling myself we’ll have one sunny day. I think I’ve been putting it off not because I’ll sound silly talking to the wind at a cemetary, laughing or crying or whatever comes out.

It’s crazy how I can talk about you with other people now, and not get offended or want to abruptly stop because I’ll get sad. I think it just got a little more easier in time, and I’m not complaining. I think you’d be SO surprised to see me these days…what I’ve done, what I look like, and all that. Then again I know you already know all about these changes, and some of them have to be making you shake your head. I can’t say I’m proud either, babe =\

I ALWAYS catch myself trying to make pictures in my head of what youd be doing if you were still here, and how much we would have changed from 8th grade. Whenever I tell my friends about myself before and after you…..I think of myself as 2 different people. I was a fake version of the Lauren I am today….I was the happy version of the Lauren I am today, though. I can’t even try to explain that well enough. But I think my way of dealing with your death was kind of to put it off….kinda look at it as “shit happens”….and even though that’s the biggest shit God took on my life, I can’t change it…..you had to go….

I’ve thought about how that night went, and everything taken into consideration…..of course I’d take that night away If I could….but there’s something about the mystery you left us that pisses me off enough to just let it be…..yknow? I think you’d be such a help to my little girl problems I have with guys, and I know I’d try to help you too….even thhough I never was good with advice. And I can’t know for sure if you were happy with me as a friend, but all I can do is assume, even though I feel like a piece of shit. I want you to know that I’m trying to change that…I’m trying to be happier, and more involved with my friends. I really do take so much from you in time, its ridiculous. Want me to tell you about it?

I learned to LOVE……keep grudges small, and tell everyone the good things-love lasts longer than hate, believe that.

I learned to love MYSELF….never thought I’d say that, but I was born for a reason, as were you…and the love for your own life is so great once you find it.

It’s okay to feel bad sometimes…..i’m human.

Anyway, babes……UGH I’d give a whole lot to just talk to you….I could hug you for days cuz I know the last one was too long ago…And at the end of the day, all I can say is you’re livin it up, I can’t be anything less than proud of the friend I had on Earth, and the one I still have in Heaven. Ease that pain on your mother, will you? I love you more than this stupid blog, but I can’t think of any other way sometimes to tell you how I feel.

10.19.11.